Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to all the beautiful, sweet, and selfless Mother's I know! I hope you all feel so loved on this day, and not guilty! I think Mother's day can be hard on a lot of people, I never realized so clearly until now. But I know that we as women can come down on ourselves and compare ourselves to other moms, but I hope on this wonderful and sacred day you Mother's out there can think of all the good you have done and see yourself through the eyes of your children! We are heroes, mentors, best friends, nurses, nutrition's, judges, drivers, coaches, chefs, bakers, housekeepers, teachers, tear wipers, the best huggers and kissers, and warriors in today's world. It is true that our children will never realize how much we love them until they become parents. I am so grateful for all of your examples to me! Especially for my mom! My mom was all of the above listed and more. She has always been on my side, loved me, rooted me on, cried with me, and now, grieved with me. She is my best friend and a wonderful example of the kind of my mom I hope to be, so strong, fun, and faithful. Thank you mom for my life, because of you I now am a mother of two beautiful boys. Now I know how much you love me, because the way that I love my sons is indescribable, unbreakable, cannot be measured, and feels like the love I have will burst out of me at any moment. I know now more than ever how lucky I am to have children and will never take them or the role as mother for granted, I cherish each day!

This Mother's Day has been filled with many emotions. We went to the cemetery where our precious Ryan's body lay and thought of him and how he also made me a mother. I longed to be with him on this day! To hold him, kiss him, and see him smile back at me. I miss him so much. I feel blessed to be a mother of two and really enjoyed the peace I felt near his resting place. Jake and Jonathon played with bubbles, below are all the pictures of the beautiful blooms all around us. The view from his memorial is so astonishing. I felt him there with us and as we left we all blew kisses up toward heaven to baby brother, Jonathon loves doing this routine.

the view

Me and my first baby, my sunshine, my whole heart. Jonathon 2 1/2 yrs.


My toes! Yesterday I enjoyed a very relaxing afternoon at the day spa here in town. When I arrived I put on a beautiful robe and slippers and sat in the "sanctuary room" where a beautiful tray of many fruits awaited me, lights dim, soft music, with Tuscany painted on the walls. Then I had an hour long full body, much needed, massage. I was in heaven and felt liked Jello after! The lights were dim, candles everywhere, beautiful music playing, ahhhh, so nice. Following this I got dressed and headed over to another area for my pedicure and manicure, meanwhile as I read some magazines, I was given a banana smoothie! This was such a great gift, the best. It really relaxed me and helped me to focus and regain some inner rejuvenation. Thanks to my sweet husband always, who as I said before, makes many days feel like Mother's day!
This morning I woke up to Jake's famous french toast, beautiful cards, homemade hand/foot print gifts and a foot rub from the boys. Then I went to church solo because Jonathon is getting a little cough and stuffy nose. We were given Ghirardelli chocolate's (who knew that's one of my favorite's?) besides See's of course. My mom took care of that though with a beautiful array of pink bon bon's and coconut creams! After some smooches and a nap with my hubby we all went to the cemetery and then on to my in- law's for dessert and nice chatting time with the family. Good day!! Thanks everyone for your thoughts, gifts, and love.